I am not even mysterious

I am just tired—Yes, tired!

Hello love, how are you? How was the last week for you? Welcome aboard, I hope you find hope, happiness and peace here.

I need me some peace too but I still hope you find peace here.

I am here again after being away for so long and today is just going to have a lot of ramblings but it’d still be with love from Bami.

Let’s talk about suicide since it is suicide prevention month.

I read somewhere that Suicide is the act of intentionally causing one’s own death and it really hits me cause I can’t imagine what a person would have suffered to come to the conclusion that ending their own life is what they want to do. I’d never blame them though cause a couple of times that thought comes to my mind but o never act on it cause I just couldn’t, hehe,

According to WHO, Suicide affects over 720,000 people worldwide every year, with a ratio of about 20 suicide attempts for every completed suicide. Meaning that day in day out someone is out there killing themselves, could be because of social, cultural, financial, biological, psychological and environmental factors or whatever factor there is that affects us.

Mysterious me has been mysterious because I think I do not possess what it takes to show up and I bet someone that committed suicide would have gone through this phase before. I believe that they were mysterious, they got tired and they just ended it.

I also believe that you might also be here with me currently but I just really hope that you wouldn’t end it.

I saw a post on TikTok about a young lady updating her bio to “Nineteen forever” before killing herself. These people know these things, showing that it is only murder that isnt expected by the victim but suicide is always planned carefully until it happens.

This is to say that, you’d know if you want to end it and I really praise these people because it takes a whole lot of courage to be facing death and not fleeing.

I read this article by this young lady about how Nigeria is trying to decriminalize attempted suicide and although they’re passing a bill already.

Currently,suicide attempts are criminalised under Section 327 of the Criminal Code Act, which states that “any person who attempts to kill himself is guilty of a misdemeanour and is liable to imprisonment for one year.”  

I really believe that it is pure wickedness to make someone that had a failed suicidal attempt face charges. I really love what Senator Ekpenyong said though

       

         Depression, anxiety and other mental

         health conditions affect millions of

         Nigerians, yet they are poorly understood

        and rarely prioritized. Suicide prevention

        is an issue that requires government

       attention, sustained education and       

       sensitization”

He also said that it doesn’t just end at suicide prevention or stopping the decriminalizing and of attempted suicide, he believes and I also believe that the government needs to set up structures that assists these people and also help them find their place back in the society without being stigmatized.

I also believe that the law criminalizing attempted suicide is even part of what makes Nigerians not seek help whenever they’re battling suicidal thoughts and all of that.

An acquaintance committed suicide this year and I felt so so bad about it because I was wondering what made him do it, he was such an happy boy—at least that was what I remember him for.

We used to have conversations, comment on each other’s posts and also seek advice from each other but all that stopped like months before he died.

Not saying that our communications would have made him rethink killing himself but for days I asked myself why I didn’t reach out to him at all. “I was battling my own troubles too” was the answer that came to my head and not to lie I believe that while battling your troubles you can try to reach out to your people to check on them as it helps me be in touch with reality.

Stay mysterious if you have to, be tired for days, weeks, even months if you have to but please do not end it🥺.

We can be tired together, you know and one day we can be strengthened together cause I believe that we can’t stay tired until the day. One day we’d find strength and a purpose of being that will make us want to hold on to life like it’s all we’ve got😉.

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Until next week, remember that suicide is an option you should never take.

Welcome to a new week; I hope it’s a good one for you and I.

I love you, bye bye.