FOR 23

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Hi love, how are you? How was the last week for you? Welcome aboard, I hope you find hope, happiness and peace here.

I don’t think I have ever had the thought of dying as much as I did when I was 18. I was asking God for a particular thing at that time and it wasn’t forthcoming. I became so vast in the knowledge of depressive songs. I daily loaded myself with songs from Juice Wrld, NF, Xxxtentacion, Lewis Capaldi and the likes. I think that I was a very confused person at that time.

I had received the life of Christ at the time but I just hadn’t started walking fully in my identity. I could pray in tongues, I studied the Bible, I prayed for hours but once I am done I went back to feed my soul with these songs and they aided my thoughts of ending my life.

I would have been so mad at myself if I had ended my life(I do not know how possible that is but, yeah)

On the long run, I found my way out of that phase and before I proceed I sincerely pray for anyone in that kind of phase: may God bring you out with His mighty hands.

I know what it feels like being depressed and wanting to end it all, I also know what it feels like to live a fulfilling and Godly life and I’d advice that when both options are placed before you, choose the later.

As much as my flesh would love to highlight negativity, I choose to be happy and grateful!

I am grateful that I am kept, I am doing life with God, I am a child of God, I have a community of people that love me wholeheartedly, I am leading a life that pleases my Father. What more could I ever want?

From the bottom of my heart, I am grateful to God for keeping me till this year.

Happy birthday Ayobami Aiyedun! This is 23! This is the year where all the Lord has said about you will come to pass!

This brings us to the end of our gratitude series.

Until tomorrow, bye.